This morning, we were woken by the rain… winter is coming to an end but this morning, it was still present. I found it hard to rise from bed but this morning we no longer had any fruits or vegetables….
Silently and slowly, I made my way to the shower but no hot water this morning. Not enough sun hitting the solar panels. River was already waiting for me, ready to leave.
River over in the other room playing music now. Us in the living room, listening to the birds hide in the rain. I laugh alone, thinking of the days I thought I could travel all over, even if with child. So instead, I rest in silence. We are happy 1,000 meters above sea level high up in the mountains. The house is mostly empty… a hammack hangs in the terrace and in our bedroom, there are only plants and a low mattress… The kitchen is so cold we do fine without a frigo, the veggies and fruits decorate the kitchen.
France and Spain travels seem so far away already. My travels in Africa and the States seem even further away. What a beauty. I am grateful to the Most High that for one month I was able to share love with my parents and family in the States.
There is not a single day ZOLA does not come into my thoughts… We even thought of flying her over… but we are so unpredictable I do not doubt being in the states for the holidays. The beauty of living present.
Often, illusion gets ahold of me. Fears, sadness, and melancholy. Currently, River and I are coming out of negative situations experienced with other souls of us that we held so real and close to our hearts… it is frightening to think it all perhaps was based on illusion. Beware of Maya. But this just helps us connect further with the Most High and grow to higher states of conciousness. I would not be home if I did not know God.
River: I can tell you grew up in the states
River: Because of the music you listen to
Me: Who? Bobby and Joannie Baez?
A part deep down inside of me is very happy for the upcoming expiration of my visa. It could spark the next wanderlust… For many many days now, I have not picked up my camera. It is like we have been hibernating burning candles and incense… listening to Marley, Mbira folk, and Krishna bhajans.
River and I are manifesting a midwife. We are curious to know our Moon child’s state. We have calculated she is about two months young.
Love and true Kindness. The true change is deep down within us.